Was working with a new therapist tonight. They were doom scrolling (TikTok/insta) while they were by all professional and cultural standards, supposed to be deeply engaged. I realised this, while looking into their eyes, deeply engaged with them, seeing their reflection very clearly in their glasses. I had to stare for a bit to be sure. To ready myself for the awkwardness. We gracefully confronted the issue. Relationship over as it was blossoming. Align work & life? Hard. Body & mind fit for black diamonds? Damn hard. Trying to do both, where full presence comes for free.